pagi tadi present paper to the board..

meeting 10.30am..overlsept, 830 baru tersedar..nasib baik dah iron baju...9.30 baru sampai ofis..shit, lambat...asked hafizul to make me my morning coffee...ade ke gila nak bertempur dgn directors tanpa morning coffee..

tak sampai 3 minit, baru kat 1st slide, dah kene tembak...non-stop...sampai tercungap2 nak explain...3 directors, one svp, one vp. menyerang tanpa henti...terkulat2 sy nak menjawab...bos kecik yg baru, duduk belakang sy diam mendengar, bos sy dan boss kepada boss sy cuba tolong...i appreciate that...tapi bile one of the directors point out the term sheet is not reflective, my vp jadi down giler..right away director itu menyekolahkan sy...and it was a horrible few minutes of silent moment..fuck...sy lupa nak update...bila mereka start tanya on the technical part of the project, i was thankful our consultant, kenneth, sanggup drop by office to join the meeting eventho dia on leave..selamat saye...thanks kenneth..nnti i belanje u rokok sebatang...

dan mereka tanya pula pasal financial..sy terkedu...i knew the answer, but somehow mcm tak terlintas..atau sy memang terlupa..shit fuck...sy cuma diam...boss tengok sy diam terkedu sama...rasa mcm nak pitam pun ade...

anyway, it got approved..with additional terms and condition..and the amount kene cut...sighhhh...

then habis meeting, seperti biasa la..kene panggil boss...post mortem...kata2 bos yang menusuk kalbu,

"mcm mana u tak boleh jawab financial question..bukan ke u auditor?"

sy terus tertunduk..kaku habis...

boss cakap pula, takpela..take this as point of improvement...ur next paper i foresee it will be as complicated as this...be ready...

lemah longlai terasa...now, drafting letter of offer..next step, is to convince and sell it to my customer...memerlukan teknik mulut manis tahap dewa...